I knew this day would come. For years, even. I waited, I worried, I agonized, I regretted, I questioned, I anticipated. These changes, any change for that matter, are very difficult for me.
This week will mark the first time in 20 years where I won't have any kids at home. That I'll be alone all day. That my second child, my oldest daughter, is leaving my nest. That the role I played as homeschool mom, the role that I placed so much of my identity on as a person-- is finished. I'm done. I won't be homeschooling my children from now on.
...Some things I've learned about homeschooling:
- No one will understand how emotionally and physically exhausting it is to homeschool, in addition to a mother's other home duties, until you've experienced it. It takes an enormous amount of diligence, perseverance, and commitment.
- Burnout is real. Homeschooling gets old after the the initial excitement. The honeymoon doesn't last forever.
- No one will know the pressure we feel to prove we are doing a good enough job of it.
- You can't teach it all. No one can.
- I've come to terms that I will always question and wonder if I did enough. If I did my best. If I did right by them. If they learned the most important lessons I wanted to teach them.
- Homeschooling is a lifestyle. It encompasses everything you do in your family.