well, i had all my intentions and plans set for this month of september, but life has a way of changing things, i've learned.
i've recently experienced another stress fracture in my foot. a different spot than the one earlier this summer. my plantar fasciitis won't let up. the inflammation (and the resulting pain) problem, we saw yesterday through ultrasound, greater than when i first went to the doctor in january, and even greater after my surgery in march.
as you know, i've tried everything. it's been hard not to allow discouragement to consume me. to be able to feel hope and trust. to not be able to do something as simple as being able to walk. it's hard to not have the freedom to live the life i want and need to live. especially hard when others depend on me. a hard thing to not allow my spirit and will to be broken.
and this idea of letting go. oh, how i'm learning what that means.
considering all these factors, i've (we've) decided my next and hopefully final step will be another surgery. the one that is more invasive, and that i've tried at all costs to avoid, but one that i hope will be the solution. i go in on tuesday. i'll be looking at another long recovery with lots of down time. back to using crutches and that fun, fun scooter for six weeks, give or take.
again, i feel like a sad and sorry broken record, hesitating to continually share this ongoing trial with you all, but as this blog's main purpose has been the tool to record the story of my life, i feel it should be included. and i guess i just wanted to let you-- my family, friends, and neighbors-- know that i may or may not be present here for a while. maybe i'll pop in when i get bored or when inspiration strikes. or those days when i can hobble around with my camera. (the idea of not taking photographs just kills me.)
as i always say and i always mean, your visits and interest in my life amazes me. for this, my heart is lifted and grateful.
life is really so very beautiful.
see you on the other side,